It’s been a while . . .

Well, it’s been a while since I’ve been here.  I have been a little preoccupied by all the mommies-to-be around me.  My brother’s wife is due any day now and my husband’s sister is expecting her first in December.  Plus a friend back home is due in the next month and a cousin’s wife is due in October.  It’s wonderful news for these mommies-to-be and I am truly excited for them. 

I have to admit, each time I heard about someone new expecting I’d get a little twinge and wish I was joining their ranks, but it’s the first time I wasn’t absolutely devastated by the good news. 

Of course, as we approach the arrival of our nephew, the kids’ cousin, Zack more so than any of the others is asking questions.  He has had the whole “sex talk” so he knows about the birds and the bees, but he is asking about our previous pregnancies and miscarriages.  Then of course, today in his health – we school year round – he started a chapter about his changing body and it started off with the beginning of life with pictures of babies in utero and talked about conception to birth. 

So, then he was curious how far along I was with the pregnancies when the miscarriages occurred.  He even remembered that our last miscarriage was over two years ago – two years and eight months ago.  Those conversations are getting easier to have. 

I know when I see my nephew for the first time, my heart will ache, but I will also be so happy he is part of our extended family and that my brother and his wife have been blessed with such a wonderful gift.